I know you are but what am I

Lately I have found myself in the middle of some angry woman. Whether or not they are mad at me or mad at themselves for some kind of shortcomings I have no idea. Sometimes when you are a strong woman who speaks her mind and has found a little success in the world you will become the object of someone else’s disdain. It would be one thing if I was getting this sort of stuff from one person but lately some crazy stuff has been said about me for absolutely no reason and sometimes it feels like I have been betrayed by people I trusted.

It was only a about a week ago that I was talking to my Dad and I had said to him (with him agreeing) that you are the only one who can control your emotions. You are the only one who can allow someone else to make you feel bad about yourself or let yourself get angry. And usually I am a true believer but it seems that lately it is coming from all sides for so many trivial reasons. It could be jealousy, it could be a chemical imbalance, it could be fear.

I can handle some aggression or passive aggression but when it comes on this strong from separate sources it wares on me. I am weary. I am sick. I am internalizing the emotions and allowing their negative energy into my positive world. It is times like this that I turn to good old Mr. Fred Rogers. The man knows his shit! Here is one that helps me when I get into these depressions…when I let people upset me…When I let myself be upset.

“Confronting our feelings and giving them appropriate expression always takes strength, not weakness. It takes strength to acknowledge our anger and sometimes more strength yet to curb the aggressive urges anger may bring and to channel them into nonviolent outlets. It takes strength to face our sadness and to grieve and to let our grief and our anger flow in tears when they need to. It takes strength to talk about our feelings and to reach out for help and comfort when we need it.” ~ Fred Rogers

There don’t we all feel better…maybe after a good cry. Maybe after I figure out a appropriate way to address these issues. It is not easy growing up and dealing with insecure people. It is not easy but sometimes you have to turn the other cheek and sometimes you have to come at the problem head on and get it taken care of directly. Either way always remember that it is okay to feel anger, to feel sadness but it is not okay to continue to let others make you feel less of yourself. Believe in yourself. Have respect for yourself.



2 responses to this post.

  1. absolutely.. thanks i love this..


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